young [something]<something|(click: ?something)[(replace: ?something)[something, young action.]]
(click:"action")[greet me in a hug, sure.] (click:"sure")[I've seen you once, sure.]
(click:"once")[talk a minute, now I get it.]
(click:"it")[I know what you are,]
(click:"know")[only because I've known who I am.]
(click:"who")[scare my classmates early on,]
(click:"classmates")[to think you could pray any part of yourself away.]
(click:"pray")[there's nothing to undo here,]
(click:"undo")[nothing to salvage.]
(click:"salvage")[so why [[ask->1.01]] if I am saved?]
[[aperire->1.0]]
by <a href="http://www.seanstartrunning.com/">sean navat balanon</a>
young something, young action.
greet me in a hug, sure. I've seen you once, sure.
talk a minute, now I get it.
I know what you are,
only because I've known who I am.
scare my classmates early on,
to think you could pray any part of yourself away.
there's nothing to undo here,
nothing to salvage.
so why ask if I am saved?
{(live: .8s)[if]} {(live: 1.2s)[I]} {(live: 1.8s)[am]} {(live: 2s)[saved,]}
{(live: 3s)[then]} {(live: 3.5s)[I'll]} {(live: 4s)[be]} {(live: 4.4s)[damned.]}
(live: 7s)[ [[+->2.0]] ]
take us for fools in grammar school,
(click:"fools")[imagine taking an adult's [[word->2.01]] for a traitor's end.]
take us for fools in grammar school,
imagine taking an adult's word for a traitor's end.
(live: 1s)[how do you run] (live: 3s)[after turning in your friend]
(live: 6s)[with a [[kiss->2.02]]?]
there is a special case for [[acts->2.03]] of such gravity.
carry [[guilt->2.04]] how you will.
let it well up in your throat
(click:"throat")[until [[breath->2.05]] no longer comes naturally.]
figure the best way to tie things up
(live: 2s)[is around your neck.]
(live: 6s)[ [[x->3.0]] ]
he [is]<is|(click: ?is)[(replace: ?is)[is pretty brilliant,]]
I [am]<am|(click: ?am)[(replace: ?am)[am pretty nothing.]]
(click:"nothing")[what would anyone understand]
(click:"understand")[[[[elevate]<c1|]<c2|]<c3| my small phase into anything but]
(click: ?c1)[small phase.] (click: ?c2)[hero worship.] (click: ?c3)[[[boy->3.01]] crush.]
imagine what I could do with a body
(click:"imagine")[know what I could do with some knowing]
(click:"knowing")[ [[≠->4.0]] ]
wonder if there's a place I could stay for long,
(click:"stay")[any company I could keep]
(click:"company")[in sharing sentiment.]
(click:"sentiment")[ [[not really.->4.01]] ]
(live: .2s)[well,] (live: .4s)[maybe] (live: .6s)[for] (live: .8s)[a] (live: 1s)[little] (live: 1.2s)[while]
(live: 1.4s)[but] (live: 1.6s)[I] (live: 1.8s)[doubt] (live: 2s)[[[permanence->4.02]]]
after you've done some thinking,
(click:"after")[find yourself on the [[other->4.03]] side again.]
dissect the entirety,
(click:"dissect")[who is there to fall back on?]
(click:"fall back")[pick and choose who you'll go back to.]
(click:"choose")[will you need to go back then?]
(click:"need")[ [[∆->5.0]] ]
(live: .2s)[come] (live: .4s)[to] (live: .6s)[appreciate] (live: .8s)[waking] (live: 1s)[up] (live: 1.2s)[for] (live: 1.4s)[lecture.]
(click:"up")[meet in the morning, why not?]
(click:"why not")[better to get going [[fresh-faced->5.01]] and ready]
I could take on [[anything->5.02]]
pick up a reading and know it will better stay with me
(click:"stay")[see how to function in front of those who haven't been sleeping]
(click:"sleeping")[wave it off as nothing]
(click:"nothing")[I [[thank you->5.03]] anyway.]
and break my day in half,
(click:"break")[the afternoon does not [[exist->5.04]] for us.]
leaves us [[[suspended]<c1|]<c2|]<c3|:
(click: ?c1)[I could stay,] (click: ?c2)[I could walk back home,]
(click: ?c3)[[[come back later.->5.05]]]
what do I care for?
(click:"care")[(live: .2s)[a] (live: .4s)[chance] (live: .6s)[to] (live: .8s)[find] (live: 1s)[you] (live: 1.2s)[the] (live: 1.4s)[same] (live: 1.6s)[way.]]
(click:"same")[killing time?]
(click:"time")[shuffling through papers,]
(click:"shuffling")[what have you?]
(click:"have")[(live: .2s)[a] (live: .4s)[chance] (live: .6s)[to] (live: .8s)[catch] (live: 1s)[you] (live: 1.2s)[[[alone.->5.06]]]]
exchange and take any thing I will [[understand->5.07]] later on.
take the walk back.
(click:"walk")[the sun set hurls me into evening.]
(click:"set")[sit myself up [[front->5.08]].]
I must stop from noting every single thing.
(live: 5s)[(transition: "dissolve")[I want to remember what you say.](stop:)]
(live: 7s)[[[+->6.0]]]
toss away the receipts.
all that was said will [[play back->6.01]]
to me before bed.
comb through my head
to reach a point here,
(click:"comb through")[pick apart what we've seen in each other.]
(click:"pick apart")[so easy to shake off tension
than to face conflict.]
(click:"face")[(transition: "dissolve")[[[ø->7.0]]]]
the drinks from these mass coffee shops are never hot enough
(click:"hot")[I want to set my insides to a [[boil->7.01]].]
warmth seems to come later every year,
but it will cycle back the next
now that I've said it.
spring hasn't been so cruel since our leaving.
[[so I've said it.->7.02]]
I only miss our school town now because of the academic ends.
(click:"ends")[(transition: "dissolve")[touch the finality,]
(live: 1s)[(transition: "dissolve")[the inevitable emptying out.](stop:)
(live: 4s)[(transition: "dissolve")[[[∞->0.0]]](stop:)]]]