young [something]<something|(click: ?something)[(replace: ?something)[something, young action.]] (click:"action")[greet me in a hug, sure.] (click:"sure")[I've seen you once, sure.] (click:"once")[talk a minute, now I get it.] (click:"it")[I know what you are,] (click:"know")[only because I've known who I am.] (click:"who")[scare my classmates early on,] (click:"classmates")[to think you could pray any part of yourself away.] (click:"pray")[there's nothing to undo here,] (click:"undo")[nothing to salvage.] (click:"salvage")[so why [[ask->1.01]] if I am saved?] [[aperire->1.0]] by <a href="http://www.seanstartrunning.com/">sean navat balanon</a> young something, young action. greet me in a hug, sure. I've seen you once, sure. talk a minute, now I get it. I know what you are, only because I've known who I am. scare my classmates early on, to think you could pray any part of yourself away. there's nothing to undo here, nothing to salvage. so why ask if I am saved? {(live: .8s)[if]} {(live: 1.2s)[I]} {(live: 1.8s)[am]} {(live: 2s)[saved,]} {(live: 3s)[then]} {(live: 3.5s)[I'll]} {(live: 4s)[be]} {(live: 4.4s)[damned.]} (live: 7s)[ [[+->2.0]] ] take us for fools in grammar school, (click:"fools")[imagine taking an adult's [[word->2.01]] for a traitor's end.] take us for fools in grammar school, imagine taking an adult's word for a traitor's end. (live: 1s)[how do you run] (live: 3s)[after turning in your friend] (live: 6s)[with a [[kiss->2.02]]?] there is a special case for [[acts->2.03]] of such gravity. carry [[guilt->2.04]] how you will. let it well up in your throat (click:"throat")[until [[breath->2.05]] no longer comes naturally.] figure the best way to tie things up (live: 2s)[is around your neck.] (live: 6s)[ [[x->3.0]] ] he [is]<is|(click: ?is)[(replace: ?is)[is pretty brilliant,]] I [am]<am|(click: ?am)[(replace: ?am)[am pretty nothing.]] (click:"nothing")[what would anyone understand] (click:"understand")[[[[elevate]<c1|]<c2|]<c3| my small phase into anything but] (click: ?c1)[small phase.] (click: ?c2)[hero worship.] (click: ?c3)[[[boy->3.01]] crush.] imagine what I could do with a body (click:"imagine")[know what I could do with some knowing] (click:"knowing")[ [[≠->4.0]] ] wonder if there's a place I could stay for long, (click:"stay")[any company I could keep] (click:"company")[in sharing sentiment.] (click:"sentiment")[ [[not really.->4.01]] ] (live: .2s)[well,] (live: .4s)[maybe] (live: .6s)[for] (live: .8s)[a] (live: 1s)[little] (live: 1.2s)[while] (live: 1.4s)[but] (live: 1.6s)[I] (live: 1.8s)[doubt] (live: 2s)[[[permanence->4.02]]] after you've done some thinking, (click:"after")[find yourself on the [[other->4.03]] side again.] dissect the entirety, (click:"dissect")[who is there to fall back on?] (click:"fall back")[pick and choose who you'll go back to.] (click:"choose")[will you need to go back then?] (click:"need")[ [[∆->5.0]] ] (live: .2s)[come] (live: .4s)[to] (live: .6s)[appreciate] (live: .8s)[waking] (live: 1s)[up] (live: 1.2s)[for] (live: 1.4s)[lecture.] (click:"up")[meet in the morning, why not?] (click:"why not")[better to get going [[fresh-faced->5.01]] and ready] I could take on [[anything->5.02]] pick up a reading and know it will better stay with me (click:"stay")[see how to function in front of those who haven't been sleeping] (click:"sleeping")[wave it off as nothing] (click:"nothing")[I [[thank you->5.03]] anyway.] and break my day in half, (click:"break")[the afternoon does not [[exist->5.04]] for us.] leaves us [[[suspended]<c1|]<c2|]<c3|: (click: ?c1)[I could stay,] (click: ?c2)[I could walk back home,] (click: ?c3)[[[come back later.->5.05]]] what do I care for? (click:"care")[(live: .2s)[a] (live: .4s)[chance] (live: .6s)[to] (live: .8s)[find] (live: 1s)[you] (live: 1.2s)[the] (live: 1.4s)[same] (live: 1.6s)[way.]] (click:"same")[killing time?] (click:"time")[shuffling through papers,] (click:"shuffling")[what have you?] (click:"have")[(live: .2s)[a] (live: .4s)[chance] (live: .6s)[to] (live: .8s)[catch] (live: 1s)[you] (live: 1.2s)[[[alone.->5.06]]]] exchange and take any thing I will [[understand->5.07]] later on. take the walk back. (click:"walk")[the sun set hurls me into evening.] (click:"set")[sit myself up [[front->5.08]].] I must stop from noting every single thing. (live: 5s)[(transition: "dissolve")[I want to remember what you say.](stop:)] (live: 7s)[[[+->6.0]]] toss away the receipts. all that was said will [[play back->6.01]] to me before bed. comb through my head to reach a point here, (click:"comb through")[pick apart what we've seen in each other.] (click:"pick apart")[so easy to shake off tension than to face conflict.] (click:"face")[(transition: "dissolve")[[[ø->7.0]]]] the drinks from these mass coffee shops are never hot enough (click:"hot")[I want to set my insides to a [[boil->7.01]].] warmth seems to come later every year, but it will cycle back the next now that I've said it. spring hasn't been so cruel since our leaving. [[so I've said it.->7.02]] I only miss our school town now because of the academic ends. (click:"ends")[(transition: "dissolve")[touch the finality,] (live: 1s)[(transition: "dissolve")[the inevitable emptying out.](stop:) (live: 4s)[(transition: "dissolve")[[[∞->0.0]]](stop:)]]]